But there's already something that's already magnificent, that it's not total silence, because that's the worst. Especially in those times when you know you screwed up. You see, you can say to yourself, does your family think about that, what do your friends think about that, what does your boss think about that, so you're just ruminating, you don't have music, you're sitting on your mattress or you cry inside. Already there you have music you can calm down a little.

I especially remember this scene, precisely this thing where all of a sudden I did ta-ta, it put play, "phew", there was really this thing where it went "phew", like "ah there it's good". It was soothing, really soothing, tranquilizing.

I put on classical music and I started to do classical dance, finally whether it was classical dance, muay-thai, tai-chi, cladding training, whether it was training to move in motion and dodge blows, all that I learned in isolation room.

I took to dancing. And yeah, it's often, even standing I was drumming on my thighs, I had to pass the time, might as well make a little bit of music.

For example, I know that I have ideas that start to loop, and as a rule, the means I use to interrupt this process is either to listen to the radio or to listen music. And if I don't have these tools at my disposal, well in the end we'll feed the malaise on our own, we'll create a situation that will go from manageable to unmanageable, and... it's very unsatisfying to say that we have the means, but because in the protocol for placement in treatment rooms you are told "You must return in such conditions, you are not entitled to this or that" (because you have the right nothing), and... all these strategies that you have been able to put in place on the outside to help you live, you will not even be able to use them